I realized there is nothing that anyone can take from me, nothing material anyway, that actually would move me. The one thing I wanted is already gone. On the one hand I can't imagine life any other way, but the loneliness is overwhelming and I can't help but dream.
All this time I had a notion in the back of my mind that someday it would be over, and when it was things would be better. But I really thought about it and realized this is not at all what I want. I want it to work, to get better.
How do I work to fix something of this magnitude when I myself feel so useless and broken?
